What's This Life All About?

Days in dreams
Like nightmares instead
Breaking seams
Am I better off dead?
Wishing for a way out
What's this life all about?

Nights spent in tears
Inside my head
Living my fears
Alone in my bed
Voices inside they shout
What's this life all about

Twisting and turning
My eyes always burning
Screaming and crying
My soul's always dying
I can't fake it anymore
My spirit is broken to the core

Years spent alone
Locked away with you
My heart's turned to stone
All the pain I've been through
Waiting for my way out
what's this life all about

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